Something More.

"Cause my comfort would prefer for me to numb, and avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become."
"We were meant to live for so much more; have we lost ourselves?"
"This is your life. Are you who ought to be?"
"Now that I have seen, I am responsible. Faith without deeds is dead."
"I wonder why would I wait til I die to come alive? I'm ready now, I'm not waiting til the afterlife."
"It's a question, like a shame no one will show: What do I live for? If we've eyes to see, if we've ears to hear to find it in our hearts and mouths the Word who saves is near. Shed that shallow skin; come and live again. Leave all you were before; to believe is to begin."
"If it takes just one, just one[to change the world], what if, what if, what if I'm the one? What if you're the one?"
"If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for My sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed?" Luke 9:24-25 NLT
"I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul."
"Yes, everything else is worthless when compared to the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with Him..." Philippians 4:8-9a
"I've made a mess of me; I wanna get back the rest of me. I've made a mess of me. I wanna spend the rest of my life alive! I've made a mess of me; I wanna reverse this tragedy. I've made a mess of me; I wanna spend the rest of my life alive!"
"What if there's a bigger picture? What if I'm missing out? What if there's a greater purpose that I could be living right now? Outside my own little world."


There has been a deep stirring within my soul for the past couple of days. It is not letting up, and it is very urgent. Questions that are being asked of me: Are you ready? Are you willing? Are you ready to let go of this world, and follow Me? Are you willing to sacrifice comfort to do My will? What legacy are you going to leave? What impact are you going to have? McManus phrases these questions in an excellent manner in "The Barbarian Way": "Are you willing to lose everything on My behalf to gain everything I desire for you? Rather than living a long life, are you willing to live a life worth living?"

How do you even begin to answer these questions? What do you do? How do you respond to God's calling? What does responding to the call mean? How do you give up comfort, security, and indulgence?
Because I have lived a life of comfort, security, and indulgence for the past several months,maybe longer. I KNOW that it is not satisfying. It leaves a longing, a desire for something more. A desire for meaning and purpose.


These are just a few of the response questions I am asking myself. I want to be sure this is God, and not my horomones, making me restless.






This is my calling: to follow Him with abandon. To give up every comfort, to give up security, to give up control, and go. To reach out to the people on this earth, spreading the Good News of Jesus Christ. It's a life that counts, it's a life that matters. It's a life worth living.